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Postby ChynnaDoll » February 11th, 2008, 11:07 am

DogMa wrote:Hey, a minor miracle. I had a banana yesterday, and it didn't lead to cravings or overeating (or six more bananas). Apparently the bananas were just yet another phase, which makes sense. So that one's passed, and apparently so has my obsession with peanut butter toast. Maybe I just need to ride out each little food phase. Because these seem the same as my others, like eating turkey chili for lunch every day for months, or having hot cocoa (or before that, sugar-free Fudgsicles) every night. Maybe I just need to relax about 'em and ride them out.


hey ROBBBBB that is GREAT!!!!! YAY for that banana girl! :-P I'm about to call and and order some of those momentum infusers..hope they'll really help with the cravings..HIGH praises have been sung about
em:+)..have you tried them?

Oh, and i just had some turkey chilli yesterday but NOT homemade tho..it was Hormel's and it was beanless..but GODDDDDDDDDDDD the sodium content was QUITE high but i ate it anyway..just a cup, and then drank ALOT of water..lol!

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Postby Lauren » February 11th, 2008, 11:09 am

Mazel tov! That's a good one to get over, too, bc bananas are yummy, and it sucks to ban them!

I go through the phases as well. I've just stopped ordering the PB2 recently - when I finished the last jar from the last batch, I found myself literally having a debate with myself, can I handle it, will I eat too much, etc. I realized if it required this much thought, I probably had a "problem," and should just say no! ha Who knew? Powdered Peanut Butter?

But yeah, I totally go through those phases as well, and while I guess it's better to not stress too much during them, I suspect you were right to remove the temptation from your immediate surroundings for the time being...why risk it?

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Postby DogMa » February 11th, 2008, 12:01 pm

I'm glad to have them back, though. They were the ONLY things I'd banned, and I really don't like doing that with ANY food at this point. It goes right back to the all-or-nothing issue for me. And really, if it happens again and I just give into it and eat four bananas at one sitting, is it really that horrible? I think if it DOES happen again, I'll just compensate by lowering carbs/sugar the rest of the day, and eat as many bananas as I want. It was only when I tried to LIMIT them that I branched out into other bad-for-me choices.

So if the craving hits again, I'm going to just give in and go to town on the bananas, and see if it'll just pass in a day or two. But right now, I'm back to "normal," where I can eat one and not want six more (or start craving other stuff). Yay.

Now if I could just find where my energy went ...
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Postby Serendipity » February 11th, 2008, 12:11 pm

Good for you Robin on the banana issue! Who knows. Maybe someday I'll be able to stare down a piece of choco/peanutbutter pie! :mrgreen:
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Postby Lauren » February 11th, 2008, 12:21 pm

Yeah, but four bananas is a lot less dangerous than 4 helpings of PB2! :-)

I agree with you, Robin, I think it's awesome that you don't have banned foods, and happy that you were able to get "normal" with the nanners too.

I'm just not ever going to have a healthy relationship with food. It's not in my nature, and I've accepted that. Then again, if our miracle wish comes true, perhaps it'll change! :-)

Hope the energy comes flying back at you soon!

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Postby DogMa » February 11th, 2008, 12:53 pm

You just never know. I never thought I'd get to this point, either, although I also don't know that I'd classify my relationship with food as "normal." I'm not sure I'd classify anything ABOUT myself as normal. :roll:

But I seem to have reached a point where my eating is under control, without a whole lot of conflict or energy put into controlling it. I have had a couple of episodes where I lost control, but they were brief and not all that bad - a kind of controlled chaos, or chaos that I was able to gain control of pretty soon afterward (like, a couple of hours of emotional or mindless eating, but then I came to my senses and it was over).

All in all, I'm pretty proud of my progress. I'd still like to be down a few more pounds, but part of me wonders if maybe I'm better where I am.
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Postby Lauren » February 11th, 2008, 1:15 pm

I'm proud of your progress too, Robin! And I don't mean that in a patronizing way!

I can't speak to your "few extra pounds" issue, though. That's all you, kid. I know I just have to keep reminding myself what SIZE I wear, because intellectually I am able to realize that it's small, and I don't need to lose weight - even if mentally/emotionally I can't grasp it when looking in a mirror, the size helps me to "get it." I don't actually care about sizes in a big picture way, like if a specific designer runs really small I don't give a crap if I have to buy something two sizes larger - but just in talking myself into realizing I am thin, I have to sometimes look at a label in a pair of jeans or pants and I am reminded that I'm good to go. I think you sort of said the same thing earlier today about the size of your pants - so I think we're on the same page...

Oh, and if you're abnormal, I'm down right off my rocker.

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Postby DogMa » February 11th, 2008, 2:17 pm

Yep, that's exactly what I meant with the pants reference earlier, Lauren. I'd love to be a 4, but heck, I'm in a 6 right now. Reliably in a 6, not in a 6 just in one brand that runs big or something. (And yeah, I don't care that every once in a while I'll run into a designer/brand where a 6 doesn't fit; sometimes it goes the other way, and I fit in a 4).

I still see myself as bigger than that, and part of me thinks a 6 is too big still. But I have to keep reminding myself that a) it's one size and b) even if I stayed this size forever, I'm a size 6. And that's not big no matter HOW short I am. I was just talking to a friend about this, actually. Because I realized suddenly that no matter how big my lower belly seems to me, it fits perfectly comfortably in my jeans, so it can't be as big as I think it is. Sigh.

That's the one thing I haven't been able to gain any real control over: my self-perception. It's improved, but I still have a long way to go. I'd say I want to go on that "How To Look Good Naked" show, where they work on body issues, but no WAY would I walk around in my underwear on TV.
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Postby MerryMary » February 11th, 2008, 3:21 pm

DogMa wrote:I still see myself as bigger than that, and part of me thinks a 6 is too big still.


I'm so glad to hear you say that, Robin. I was beginning to think I'm the only one who thinks that way. I'm also in a size 6. Yes, I have some 4's and every now and again an 8 fits better, but like you, I am firmly a size 6. Still, I sometimes wonder if that's too big--or if I should be smaller. Size 4 or 6 doesn't really look small to me anymore. As a matter of fact, a couple of weeks ago I was in the fitting room trying on a shirt and said to my friend, "check this out--doesn't it make me look thin?" My friend said, "Mary, YOU ARE THIN!" Thank goodness for friends, eh? :D
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Postby Diana » February 11th, 2008, 6:53 pm

Hiya, Robin. just wanted to pop in and say hi :buddies:
Here's to our mutual success! :buddies: --Diana
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Postby DogMa » February 12th, 2008, 11:03 am

Hey, Diana!

And I'm definitely glad for friends like that, Mary. Although I still think it's because they're used to seeing me bigger, so they think I'm smaller than I am. Sigh. Obviously I still have some work to do in this area.

And speaking of work ... I did my new PUSH workout last night and Bob Harper is the devil!!! One-legged squats, more dolphins (but earlier in the workout, so I can do all 12), one-armed pushups, side planks with one arm extended up ... I think I almost cried at one point.

But I did it (well, most of it; I didn't quite make it through the pushups, and I didn't squat very low when it was only one leg, and I did the side plank OK on one side, but collapsed on the other). And then this morning, even though I was up half the night with the dogs because of thunderstorms (this was the worst I've seen poor Teemu, who was trying to burrow underneath me for protection), I got up late, told my office I'd be in late, and hit the treadmill. Cut the running part short because I was so exhausted and my heart rate was higher than normal, but still.
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Postby Lauren » February 12th, 2008, 11:51 am

Hey, Robin -

Sorry Teemu (and you) had such a bad night!

Meanwhile, is it wrong that I am so jealous/envious of your tortured workouts? The biggest work out I've gotten since Jan 7th is walking carrying an overnight bag last weekend to visit my family! :-)

I do love me some Bob, so I'm also jealous you have him in your home!

Ha.

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Postby DogMa » February 12th, 2008, 12:28 pm

I admit, he still made me laugh even when I was being tortured. There's a lot of punching in the warm-up this time, and when he has you pick a spot directly in front of you and punch it repeatedly, he suggests using his face on the screen. Which was what I was already doing.

I did love the workout, even if it was torture. And my tushy's feeling it today. Regular squats, held at the bottom, sumo squats AND one-legged squats. (And it was reassuring to see HIM topple over once or twice, too, when I was having so much trouble balancing.)

Poor Teemu. Mo was just pressed up against me so hard she almost shoved me out of bed. But he was just petrified.
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Postby DogMa » February 13th, 2008, 12:01 pm

And now for something completely different ...

So a friend of mine who's been out of work suddenly got two job offers at the same time. The one she turned down actually sounded more up my alley, so she (and a mutual friend who works there) recommended me for the job. I'm interviewing there Monday.

It's very much out of the blue, but I've been thinking about getting out of newspapers for a while, because the industry is in such dire shape.

Of course, now I have to run out and buy an interview outfit. The last time I interviewed for a job (the one I have right now), I was a size 18 and had been on Medifast for a few weeks.
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Postby queenielou » February 13th, 2008, 1:11 pm

Congrats on the interview, Robin! Not to mention the opportunity to shop for much smaller interview clothes. I hope the interview and the shopping go well :)
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