The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[GucciGoo]

Emo are you coming back to check in?

[DntCryLilEmoGrl]

wow someone checked in on me...hehe i feel special. even if it was back in feb still means something.


So yes im back... I was in tears last night. TEARS! lol.... the past two months Ive been struggling with weight watchers... id lose and it would just stay within the same 3 lbs and sometimes go back up even more...meanwhile robert lost 20 lbs since I went on a DIET!!!!....sooo frusterating...

we will see what added to this break down last night

-six months til wedding? Check!
-a no longer small wedding? Check!
-struggling to find a second job even though im totally qualified?Check!
-dress coming in a month and im 10 lbs more than when i got it? DOUBLE CHECK!

ha... so yeah last night i was in tears...because i no longer feel happy with myself. ive got clothes that are all pretty much tight on me and my muffin tops have sooooo gotten bad again.

but no matter... this gave me the resolve i need. the resolve to finish what i started. i AM going to wear a bikini on my honeymoon and NOT scare the natives at the ports we stop at

(my aunt, the same amazing one that started me on medifast before, paid for a 8 night cruise for our wedding gift...great reason to wear a bikini)

I changed my extrapounds blog title to Soon To Be Mrs SexyPants....this shall be my mantra lol.

[katieb920]

Welcome Back.

[DntCryLilEmoGrl]

thanks! glad to be back. feels really good. i dont think its just the shake i had this morning making me feel that way either

[DntCryLilEmoGrl]

so other than what my signature so bluntly says, other things have happened in the past year...

yes im engaged. we actually were engaged around 1 am on mothers day (may 13th) so when i gave my mother flowers i stuck my left hand right in her face. it was a great gift to my mom. she has been waiting for me and him to take this step and cant wait. Dress shopping with her really was a great bonding moment.

i hadnt expected robert to ask until after our 1 year anniversary (aug 9th) but nope he asked sooner i guess knowing i wouldnt expect it. I was falling asleep with him cuddled behind me and i felt the bed move and when my eyes opened there was a beautiful diamond ring.

i didnt sleep til 3 am

we are doing really well and planning has definitely been an experience. We are getting married at this gorgeous outside chapel and courtyard thats just a few miles from where we are living now.

life is really good right now. I also got my license as a registered facial specialist and am working on a career as a esthetician and a makeup artist (mainly going for bridal and possibly print work). Things arent easy starting out but im going to hang on and dig my claws in when i finally get a good opportunity.



Rayray...some of you might remember her. well she is over in italy with her hubby, who is in the airforce now. I miss her to death...she wont be able to make my wedding because

SHE'S HAVING HER FIRST BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehe...its due literally 4 days after the wedding lol...so no flying sadly. but im happy for her.

my aunt, who was also doing MF is not able to. her health is not good.

one of the reasons we wanted to get married sooner rather than later, im so scared she may not be there for it. (she may not since her daughter is having a baby) but regardless i want her to at least be able to see pics of the wedding. Her heart is gradually getting worse and now she is at stage 4 kidney failure. stage five means dialysis and i hate to think she might end up there sooner than we hope. add her diabetes in and well...its all a bad combo. i love her and i hate to thing of the truth that she may not have as much time as all of us hope. she cant due MF due to potassium and is on a strict renal diet.

anyways... so for the most part life is good. im doing this for me, but my aunt is the one who showed me this way to lose so im forever in her debt. she is an amazing woman and i also want to make her proud by taking care of myself. I know she is already very happy about the wedding, as she has helped out with alot of the ideas for it.

so thats the update on how life is. for any of u that may have missed me. if not this is an intro for the rest i suppose lol

[alpha femme]

welcome back.
we missed you.

[DntCryLilEmoGrl]

aww I dont think i realized how much i missed this board. it really helped me with medifast alot ! thanks for the welcome i really do appreciate it. and btw it looks like you are very close to your goal. thats awesome! i forgot how much others can be so inspiring on here and help me keep on truckin with medifast. i did it for six months, i imagine a huge part of it was coming here everyday which i plan on doing. even past my goal and while i maintain.

i hope you have been doing well too

[katesmom]

Welcome !!

[DntCryLilEmoGrl]

ty katesmom!


ok so i know i should only do it once a week...but i weighed myself this morning...down 1.6...not bad

i swear i will wait till next monday...or try really hard to wait til monday.

if thats my worst cheat for the week thats fine lol. i asked robert to hide the scale so technically its all his fault.

***edit***

forgot to add that i have a job interview today. It is for a second job after my regular job, over at Ulta. Your Beauty Destination. lol. The hire estheticians but aren't currently. I told her I don't mind that I have also had training with makeup and some retail experience. I got my resume all printed and my nails manicured with clear top coat so the look nice neat and shiny . My hair is straightened and I have a nice outfit on. Going to put on my face probably in a bit. LOL... it is a beauty store...so gotsta dress the part...anyways wish me luck pretty please...my medifast fund depends on it.....and my wedding fund haha.

[Diana]

Hey, beautiful!! Wow, so much to congratulate and wish you luck on!!

Good to see you back and thanks for stopping by my journal. Hope all went well with the interview, etc. and congrats on getting back on the trail! (by the way, it took me a year before I stopped weighing myself everyday! lol!)

Please give big congrats to Rayray!! My sister Dayna just had a baby 4 weeks ago, so I'm making the 7-hour drive almost every other weekend.

Welcome back!! Go get 'em, girl!!

[bikipatra]

i didnt sleep til 3 am



life is really good right now. I also got my license as a registered facial specialist and am working on a career as a esthetician and a makeup artist (mainly going for bridal and possibly print work). Things arent easy starting out but im going to hang on and dig my claws in when i finally get a good opportunity.



lol

That sounds awesome! How exciting! Best of luck. I love the magic of cosmetics!

[DntCryLilEmoGrl]

diana- it was no problem stopping by, when i realized that was your pic my jaw dropped. you have really done amazing and i will certainly give rayray the message.

biki- thanks for the best wishes ! and yay for cosmetics hehe. i actually got a job as a beauty consultant yesterday at my interview at ULTA . i was hired on the spot and im super excited about starting!

[bikipatra]

May I be gauche and ask how much of a discount you get? You must be awesome to have been hired like that!

[DntCryLilEmoGrl]

hehe i get a 25% disccount on all products AND 50% off of any salon services as long as i schedule them during mon-thurs lol. she actually told me i was awesome at the end of the interview and she usually doesnt offer a job right then and there... so i guess i must have some awesomness to me lol.

i cannot wait to use that discount. ive been dying to try out some of Urban Decay's Eyeshadows. and this gives me a reason to dress cute everyday...and get a pedicure (cannot wear open toed shows with out cute toes hehe).

i love that in their employee handbook it says " employees are encouraged to color and change their hairstyle regularly.

the only reason i havent lately is the wedding. i really want to dye my hair though haha. and i need to get the cut that i want kinda started off.

but yeah im way excited about this job. ill probably be doing a lot more cleaning than playing with cosmetics but thats fine. she definitely made it known that if i wanted to go that route, there is definitely manager position possibilities for me in my future. ive had some supervisor positions previously...kinda lol

[DntCryLilEmoGrl]

Even before getting back on the MF wagon, ive wondered, what would i look like, at like 130 or 120. Its practically unfeasible to picture it. Ive seen people take on the amazing transformation, and they become the person you never imagined. it is such a beautiful thing.

I try to picture what I will look like. I even take it a step further and wonder to myself, who I will be by then. Just a year ago i was not in the mindset i am in now. I will be honest and say with nearly every aspect of my life i did not like to give 100 percent. maybe thats why i couldnt recommit before? who knows.

So im going to try, for the sake of the power of positive thought, and for giving me something and someone to look foward to.

Here is what healthy skinny married jenn is going to be like

Jenn is a hard worker, if she isnt already a manager at her formerly part time now fulltime job, then she is right on her merry way to a higher position. She is fun, though she always has been, passionate about what she does, and very very driven. She is stylish, a little fashionista ; though she always was, loved the latest cute trends, though not all because she is certainly nobodys little sheep! Just before she couldnt pull off any of those styles and looks she adored nearly 100 lbs heavier. She loves herself, although she learned to do this a while back, regardless of her weight. But now, she cant help but smile when she sees herself in a mirror or in pictures. She may seem a little vein when she does that but she really looks fabulous. And after her hard work at losing AND MAINTAINING her slimmer self, why not admire the fruits of her labor?

she is a happy newlywed and is so thankful that she had such a supportive partner to help her reach her goal.
She is going back to dance class, maybe a little ballet or maybe bellydancing. she is a HUGE fan of belly dancing and now she isnt afraid to show off her midriff. OH and she got a cute puppy once her work schedule slowed down a little bit. its adorable! a cute little corgi, and they go walking everyday. Jenn is very proud of herself and has really learned not to take her health for granted and although it felt like hard work in the beginning, she knows now just how worth it it all was.

so thats me. what about the future you?