The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[gerimarc]

I know everyone has gone thru this and I am not unique, but it's
almost as if my body is totally rebelling against getting healthy.
It's as if my psyche is saying.....you did Atkins all those years and
now you are doing Medifast and finally getting where you should be,
healthwise, but it's not going to happen. The carb devil is
stronger than you are and you WILL sabotage yourself! Which is
exactly what I have done. Not drastically, you see. I have only
put two pounds back on (for now). But, I am totally embarrassed to
post to the board. I got so locked in at the 182 pound marker and it
wouldn't budge for weeks on end that I just sabotaged myself. I read
the posts every day. How wonderful that everyone is losing those
unwanted pounds and how happy they are! What's wrong with me? And,
yes, even eating lowcarb stuff and telling myself it would be okay.
I'll get back in the groove tomorrow. Well, it wasn't okay because
the carb cravings have now shown their ugly heads every day and
tomorrow never comes.

I was so proud to have lost 30 pounds. I am so proud that I can get
rid of my larger size clothing and get back to some normalcy with
clothing. The sad part is next Friday I am going on vacation to
Orlando for a week and I was so sure that I would have been somewhere
between the 170 and 180 mark so I would feel good about putting on a
bathing suit.

I don't feel good. I feel bloated and yes...(fat). But do I do
anything about it? N O 0 0 0.

So, here I am coming clean and hoping that by writing this down on
paper I will WAKE UP, GET BACK ON TRACK and COMPLETE THIS JOURNEY TO
WELLNESS.

Sorry if the post was a little long.

Gerimarc

[DutchChoc]

Gerimarc,

You don't need to apologize for writing how you feel and how you're doing, however long or short your report!! That's what this whole place is for -- to fill with thoughts and help.

What has been your MF routine? Seems likely to me that you "can" get to that weight range by next week, no? If you've been kinda off a while, don't you think some of those relatively few pounds will come off easier than some of the stubborn ones at 182?

30# is a wonderful difference to have made, so tell that to the carb devil and prepare to fight, fight, fight (as Camille says) for what you've earned and the work you've done. I hope that confessing goes miles towards convincing yourself that you're ready right NOW to turn things around and go the slimmer way.

[hawaiiwhatnot]

Dutch is so right Gerimac! We all post our true feelings on this board - good and bad, and that's what makes it so successful. It HELPS the rest of us not feel alone - that we ARE normal. Please don't hesitate to express yourself here!

As to the battle, yes, we've all been there - severals times each day too. It's the MF angel on one shoulder and the carb devil on the other. You have to get strong and militant - ready at all times with your ammunition (diet sodas, boullion, SF gum, water, etc. you know the supplies). When you reach for the enemy food, STOP! THINK! Allow yourself the time for rationale to work!

Train! When you're not even tempted, exercise your brain and walk yourself through the battle - see yourself reaching, stopping, thinking, walking away, and SMILING!

Victory is ours!!!
Camille