Friends I wrote this letter to myself today on a tablet at work. It is a personal letter to myself that I would like to post here so I can refer to it whenever I need to get in touch with what I'm doing. Perhaps some of you will feel your own letter being written in your heart today. I encourage you to write your own letter and feel the freedom of the truths we need to hear.
Dear Me,
I am proud of you today. Finally we are on track together--out heart and our mind. For so many years our mind knew we needed to lose weight. Our heart WANTED us to lose weight...but we could never get it together. Now here we are...7 weeks later and 21lbs lighter--FOREVER!
Let us not get lazy now--we still have 30lbs to go! But today I know we WILL make it!
150lbs is NOT my ideal weight!
140 will be awesome but not quite there.
135 is my happy place for Heart, mind, body and soul!
When Mom and Dad come this summer it will not be our excuse to cheat! I will buy some RTD to have on our trips. It will be tough, but the reward--soooo much better! We can do anything for 7 days. We will not stuff my face with fatty foods for 7 days--for what? So my family can see me eat? They have seen me eat for 35 years! Would I cheat myself because it won't be convenient on our trips? Or will I plan ahead and feel good about myself!! I will set an example for my mother who is also a diabetic. I will prove to her that life is about FUN-LOVE-LAUGHTER-AND FAMILY--NOT FOOD!!
I am a woman belonging to a long line of extrordinary women. I am a woman from a long line of DIABETIC women. I am the youngest to be diagnosed and the ONLY one not on insulin. I am a woman with 2 sons that I want to be a grandmother for! I am a woman with years of good health and happiness ahead.
I will be in control of my diabetes.
I will be in control of my body.
I am no longer a slave to food.
I can have a LOT of fun withOUT eating!
I will learn to eat healthy.
I can have SMALL portions of ooey-gooey-rich-and chewy foods from time to time and STILL maintain my ideal weight...but NOT until I am on maintenance. That day IS coming!
I know there will be weight changes. I am not naive. But I will watch my body faithfully and lose any weight more than 5lbs from my goal. If I never go over 5lbs I can lose that with no pain and suffering. That is a GOOD plan. I HAVE a plan!
I am proud of me today. I am strong and healthier and THINNER today. There is no event during this journey that requires me to cheat and break my spirit. I am a winner for trying! I will not let me down. I am very proud of me today. Let my mind and my heart remain faithful to my body! The journey has just begun.
Love,
ME