Hi Guys ---
Ok - I know I haven't been on much lately -- been working my big butt off (literally!!!!) Anyway -- since I hit the 70 pound mark lost - my bod is clinging to what's left- which is still a lot to lose by the way! Anyway, I'm down only 2 pounds since I hit the 70 mark and also - after oh, I don't know maybe 15 years, I got my period or a reasonable facsimile!!!!! HELLO - what the H-LL is going on with my body -- I'm down from a size 26 jeans to a size 16!!!! The perfect time for me to sabotage all of my hard work --- I continue to try to understand this security blanket of fat cells that I am so terrified to be rid of - every step of the way I keep trying to analyze why I hold onto this weight. I don't want to do this again - ever!!!
Reading this forum is sometimes the only sanity I can grasp. We are all struggling with so many of the same issues. I see daily glimpses of sanity in all of your posts - our issues are all alike and all different!!! But different as we may be we are all alike in this quest for health, sanity and YES thin-thin-thin-ness!!!! It does feel better - it feels freakin' GREAT with every pound, size, ounce LOST - FOREVER!!!!! I SO Want it to be FOREVER!! I'm trying so hard but the person I am most afraid of is me - the master sabotuer? or Queen of Sabotage or who ever!!!!!
Anyway - here's the deal --- I'm going on a cruise to Bermuda - yep - sailing out on Saturday - actually, heading down to Virginia to catch the ship with my good friend Sissy on Thursday - gonna be on the road or outta my usual routine for more than a week --- BUT I am loaded down with my bathroom scale and RTD's and bars - 1st thing packing - luckily my clothes aren't as big as they were and don't take up as much room in the suitcase as they used to!!!! I am scared. I know I can do this - I stuck to my program while I was in FL in March and actually lost weight. I'm going on this cruise to have fun and meet people and see Bermuda again ---NOT TO EAT!!!!! BUT do you have any idea how many people obsess about the food on a cruise - I guess it goes without saying --- I want to just focus on my meat and salad and veggies and walk the decks and hike the island and smell the flowers and TRY not to drink the rum!!! I will do it -- it does bug me that internet access is limited at $1.50 per minute but I am bringing my laptop and will be able to read posts before and after the actual cruise. I've been doing modified since the beginning so I don't have to do the food adjustment thing - right? -- so I should be able to do this - right... right. I can do some excercise classes and take the stairs and watch what I eat --- I can do this ---AND I will focus on having pictures taken that I can add to the studio when I get off of the ship ----NOW there's a plan!!!!! I'm even afraid to be thinking this way BUT I need to say it out loud - do you think a drink or two would kill me --NO Probably not ---BUT it's thinking that it won't - that will -- right.... OK.. now I'm exhausted and I have to work 14 hours tomorrow and I've rambled on and on - but I feel better having gotten all of this outta me and out to you all ---- OK bring it on - looking for input. Guido? Ladies?
LOVE you all and need you all - thanks so much for your support!!!
WE WILL do this together!!!