DAY 1
Okay, I'm such an "all or nothing person", and it's something I have to change.... I did so good the first time around on MF. No cheats and great progress....Now it seems like I'm slipping and sliding and failing all over the place. I know you're all in the boat with me, and you are all such a great support that I feel it's okay to "come clean." I responded in another thread about how bad I've been doing lately with my MF.
I'm bigger than I've ever been, and I need to change it now before it becomes something I cannot conquer. I'm feeling really scared today, coming off of so many failures I keep trying to keep myself empowered and focused.... There is so much stress in my life right now, but I cannot keep turning to food, 'cause my weight is probably my biggest stress of all. I am tired, do not look remotely like my former self, can barely do anything active. I feel "weighed down" emotionally and physically....
So, today is "D" day, decision day! Do I accept this body and continue this way, or do I fight to change. So, I'm back in the fight. I'm 1/2 way through the day, I miss food, but I'm not cheating. I've had 2 shakes so far. I'm so shaky today that I'll probably post more later... I'm trying to have shakes early in the day and save my bar and soup for last because I"m a big "late eater" and want the "best for last..."
So here's my new daily journal.... which hopefully will be much more long lasting and successful than my last... I'm trying to build up my inner strenght and dedication here, and I really feel like I can do this....