by fedup » September 15th, 2005, 10:20 am
Imagine my surprise when I got on here today and saw that people had responded despite my recent absence! THanks so much! Well, I must sound like such a loser right now. I was all gung ho for my restart (again!) and I fell off the wagon (again!) If I didn't know how great you guys all are then I probably wouldn't have the guts to come clean here!
I am struggling, trying so hard. I keep messing up, and I decided I didn't want to waste time and let the whole month go by.... so here it is the 15th, 1/2 way through the month, and I'm BACK. I really really really want and need to do this. I weigh more than I ever had in my whole life, hate the way I feel and look, and want to have my health, energy and looks back! I want to be a good role model for my daughter, and have the energy to keep up with her instead of always being tired!
I need all the support I can get, so please please please everyone post often! I love reading how great everyone is doing, and soon I hope to be right there with ya! I feel like I'm at a turning point, either keep getting bigger and bigger and give up, or stop complaining and just DO IT already, lose the weight,.... the time is now. I'm FEDUP with it! Isn't that why I chose this name way back when??!! I need to stay focused on that, 'cause I'm sure not willing to just give in and keep ballooning up!
I'm going to start my daily journal over! I'm not going to say how many days to start, I'm just making the commitment to write every day and MF everyday until I'm healthy. If I have slips along the way or temptations, I'll try to write those too so I don't let it turn into a landslide!
I'm back, and I'm hanging on by my fingernails! (By the way, today is day 1, 2 shakes in so far...)
Christy 5'5" age-34
Fresh start: Sept. 15, 2005 (240/ 240/ 160)
"Time to 'release the butterfly' inside