HI EVERYONE,
DOES ANYONE ELSE HAVE THIS OBSESSION ? IT SEEMS LIKE ONCE NO 3 OR 4 TIMES A DAY I HAVE TO JUMP ON THE SCALE JUST TO SEE IF IT BUDGED .5 LBS. I KNOW IT'S NOT GOING ANYWHERE BUT I THINK TO MYSELF IF I DRINK 2 GALLONS INSTEAD OF ONE MAYBE BY THE END OF THE DAY I WILL HAVE GONE TO THE BATHROOM ENOUGH TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE AND THAN WHEN IT SYAS I'VE GAINED 2 LBS (WATER WEIGHT OF COURSE BECAUSE I HAVE A TENDECY TO RETAIN WATER ) I GET BUMMED OUT AND THINK A PIECE OF PIZZA WON'T MAKE IT ANY WORSE IF I DON'T DRINK 3 OF MY SHAKES AND THEN I GET BACK INTO THAT VICIOUS CYCLE OF EATING/ MEDIFASTING. NOW THAT I HAVE FOUND SOMETHING THAT ACTUALLY WORKS I MESS IT UP NEEDLESS TO SAY EVEN THOUGH I'VE BEEN WEIGHING ,EATING, MEDIFASTING ,WEIGHING ,I HAVEN'T GAINED MY 20LBS BACK. THANK GOD :!: IT'S SAD TO SAY WHEN I DO GO ON A BINGE I TEND TO TAKE MILK OF MAG TO HELP GET RID OF SOME OF THE WEIGHT I KNOW THAT'S BAD SO I WANTED TO CONFESS AND DECIEDED INSTEAD OF LOOKING AT THE LONG PICTURE I'M TAKING IT WEEKS AT A TIME. RIGHT NOW I BEEN FAITHFULLY ON FOR 3 DAYS AND LIKE MIKE I CAN'T EVEN PUT OUR MF CHILI IN MY MOUTH OR IT'S ALL OVER SO NOTHING BUT SHAKES AND BROTH. MY DAUGHTERS BIRTHDAY IS JULY 6 AND SHE WANTS TO GO TO ELITCHES, BUT OF COURSE I'M ALWAYS WORRIED IF I CAN FIT IN ALL THE RIDES I DID GO LAST YEAR AT THIS WEIGHT AND SURPRISINGLY FIT IN MOST RIDES. NOTICED I SAID MOST THEIR WAS THIS ONE RIDE (BATMAN RIDE) NO LESS AND MY FAT LEGS COULDN'T FIT IN THE SLOTS AND THE ATTENDENT HAD TO ASK ME TO STEP OFF. I EVEN ASKED BEFORE I GOT ON THE RIDE IF THE SEATS WERE LIKE THE OTHER RIDES AND (SKINNY KID) OF COURSE SAID I THINK SO. I WAS SO HUMILIATED ANYWAY I PLAN ON GOING, WHEN I GO THIS TIME I WILL PROBABLY NOT BE ABLE TO RIDE THAT RIDE AGAIN BUT I HOPE BY THE END OF THE SUMMER I WILL BE RIDING THAT RIDE :!:SO TO MAKE A LONG POST EVEN LONGER THE HUSBAND HAS STOLEN THE SCALE I WILL ONLY WEIGH MYSELF ONCE A MONTH AND I WILL POST ON THE 6TH AND LET EVERYONE KNOW IF I MADE IT TO MY FIRST GOAL.
HERE'S TO BABY STEPS
NIKKINIX