Hi, I did MF about four years ago, lost approx. 60 pounds, kept it off for two years, until I became pregnant and depressed, at which point I had a net gain of 60 pounds after giving birth.
I was stuck in some sort of depression (not severe depression) which I have worked my way out of for the most part. My life is much better now and I am a much happier and active person now.
I took this entire week off of work, so I could finish unpacking, but mostly so I could start MF, my second go around. I know the first week, maybe even two weeks are going to be the toughest, therefore I figured I would do better at home instead of at work. Work has tons of candy and junk food out throughout the building.
Anyways, I was off to a great start. My son was in daycare all day. I picked him up at 5pm, brought him home and fed him dinner. As soon I was putting his chicken on his highchair, I impulsively put some in my mouth--yummy! By the way, I do the 6/0, which I was very successful on a few years back. Anyways, I didn't even try to stop myself, I really don't think I had time, I was very very impulsive on my part, I just said, I want it now and stuck it in my mouth. Since I ate the chicken, I figured since I already blew it, I might as well just go for it. Next thing I knew I went into my trash can to dig out the candies I threw out the night before. I know it sounds gross, but it was a new trash can, with only paper towels in the new plastic bag, and the candy was sealed.
Anyways, after eating all the candy, I wanted more, I started looking around the house for candy that I might have forgotton to get rid of the night before--no luck. I went nuts until after I put my son to bed, I had cereal.
Last time I did this, I was single. This time I am a single mom. Before I was able to get all of the food out of my house. This time I have to have food in my house to feed my son. I feel it would have been easier if I didn't have to feed my son! Oh well, that is my current reality and I don't know how to deal with it.
I feel like binging all week because why not, I will just start new next week. I hate this kind of thinking. Part of me feels like I will never get this thing, like I will never get thin again! Another part of me knows that I will get thin again, in fact I am very confident about it. However, it is so painful and so tough to do this program again. I know once I get through the first two weeks, it is much easier.
Somebody suggested to me to do 5/1. I tried that before, however, as soon as I am finished with my lean and green, I want sugar, I don't feel full. Eating a meal just seems to trigger my cravings even worse than they were before I ate the meal.