Well, at 730pm EST I made a decision to go off plan for the evening.
I went to the grocery store & bought a small bag of doritos, an almond poppy seed muffin and a pint of skim milk (I know, I'm a freak, I "cheat" with milk lol). I also picked up a taco salad from Taco Bell.
I got everything home, ate the salad & doritos - neither tasted great, and when I had my muffin for dessert, it was disappointly dry. I've been sick twice since I ate off plan, and it feels like there is broken glass in my tummy - instant IBS flare up!
This may sound crazy, but I'm glad I did it. I'm not likely to forget how I feel right now, and it was a thought out, planned "cheat" rather than an out of control binge.
I am honestly THRILLED every time someone a loss, makes it into a new club, fits into a smaller size jeans or says that someone almost didn't recognize them. I'm a tad envious, but so happy for each individual enjoying success - however they define it... I just wish it would happen faster for me. Don't get me wrong, I am really happy with the 12.2lbs I've lost so far, and I know they'd still be there if I hadn't started and I also know I lost them fast than I would have with pretty much any other program. But, I keep hearing (from others) the saying 'you didn't put the weight on overnight!", only I DID put 30lbs on in under 30days (woohoo quitting smoking!), so part of me wants it to come off just as quickly lol.
I appreciate the suggestions and will keep them in mind if things don't pick up. I'm not really fond of the bars, so adding a daily bar would kind of be a last resort
I will think about removing the pickles, but I track every little thing that goes into my mouth & the time down to the quarter pickle (yeah, I know how special I am), and I don't think I"m exceeding the sodium allotment, plus I drink so much water it probably balances out, but again - definately something to think about!
I haven't started exercising again yet - I'm looking forward to incorporating a trip to the dog park into my daily schedule (my new neighbor has a GREAT dog & he's letting me borrow the cutie) - hopefully that won't slow me down, because I'm really really looking forward to it.
Um... Robin, I hate to say it, but I don't particularly WANT to have time to learn the lessons we're supposed to learn right now (kidding, sort of), I think the idea of a Turtle of Tortoise section is terrific, and can I borrow someones husband to hide my scale for me please?
I want to thank you ALL for your thoughts and ideas and support today - I promise I'll be back on track tomorrow, shaking my way to thinness on day at a time