by DutchChoc » October 14th, 2004, 4:39 pm
Hang in there, Carrie. With the good things in your life, especially lately, I know that you know it isn't all about what's on the scale. In some ways, and for some of us, it's easy to think of the scale as a barometer of happiness and wellness when, in fact, it's just a scientific instrument. What's in our heads and in our hearts is at the forefront.
Thanks, Mike. You're so right and I know it well because, while I can do THIS, I suspect that I can't do "that" very well, which is moderating the flow of goods through the porthole once it's happening. Like you, doing THIS has been pretty cut and dry for me... doing "that" is what I've always been ruined by, time and time again. HOWEVER, the bright idea that I had last night was that I might stay on the shakes only at least to my goal, and then just TRY switching to some of the other MF items before cutting my teeth on transition. Well, not switching to them, of course, but using them according to the rules. My low confidence tells me that those mint bars I bought at the $300-save-$80 sale will twist me in knots, just like a pittance of candy.... but maybe if I try really hard what -- to be "normal"? -- I will succeed because I'll be telling myself that they're sanctified MF products. Ditto with the oatmeal and with the soup, etc. I suppose those are safer because I'm a sweetaholic and the bars will probably get me going.
So, I appreciate your candor, and I'm glad you're here to share your experiences. I wondered about the same time as I contemplated my new MF future how your transition went after the 100+ days of shakes only? It must be a bit freaky and cut-looshish to take those first bites. I have fears that I will be acting/feeling internally as though I've starved for a long time and somehow justify overeating. That's the one thing I don't want to happen.
Ending weight MF 10/2004: 126
Starting weight 12/1/08: 168 :-(
Loss December: -7/-0