Well, I come crawling back with confessions. I have learned a lesson. The first two weeks went SO great - 19 lbs down! I broke down and ate a Reese's one day. The next day I still lost a little, so I figured no harm done. Then I started with a handful of chips one day, a little bread another day. Never more than one bad thing a day. When I weighed in on Tuesday - the end of my 3rd week - I had gained a pound back.
I'm so disappointed in myself. I KNEW better!!!
I've been 100% on plan since Tuesday, but yesterday the scales informed me yet another pound had re-appeared. Back to 17 lbs. It's so weird to me that some chips and some bread and a Reese's cup would add up to two pounds! It seems like so little. I don't think I realized how BAD the food I have been eating is for me!
I was catching up on Binki's journal and I read the best entry from Lauren about the time it takes for bad food choices to show up, and how that leads to over-confidence. And Merry Mary is right - it completely set me up for disappointment. Not only do the bad choices take a while to show up, the worst part is that it throws me out of ketosis, which was the goal in the first place. Thank you guys so much for the postings. Lesson learned and will be remembered!! There is NO FREE CHEATING! It will catch up with me EVERY TIME!
Also, I've realized that as much as I want to weigh every day, for me it will be best to stick with Tuesdays only. I get way too discouraged when I don't lose, and way to over-confident when I do.
On another note, in the spirit of self-improvement, I have decided to have a tattoo of daisies I have on the back of my neck removed. When I got it back in college (10+ years ago) I thought that it would be really little. Surprise! It's really big. My folks were living overseas at the time and didn't find out about it for another 3 years. When my mom finally did notice it, I told her it was a type of tattoo that would slowly wear off. Just a year or two ago, she finally said, "Stace, I think maybe you should get your tattoo checked. I don't think it's wearing off like it's supposed to!" I had totally forgotten I told her that. I had to break down and tell her the truth. My poor innocent mom.
Anyhoo, at my first appointment the girl told me the session would only take one minute, plus as many breaks as I needed. I told her, "One minute! That's easy! Let's just power through it!" She just chuckled. I got in the chair and she said, "Ok! Here we go!" OMG!!!
She got off about two zaps of the laser and I was screaming, "Break! Break! Let's break!" I made it through, though. Next appointment in 6 weeks. Hopefully I will have forgotten how painful it is by then. I bet that girl makes grown men cry.
Well, back to the good fight! I love Tawanda's quote, "I will not sacrifice the thing I want the most for something I want at the moment." I'm making it my new mantra!
Love from Austin,
Stace