Anyone else been trying to get this done for almost three years? Anyone else back here for the tenth time? I am ashamed of how much weight I have gained. I am ashamed of myself for so many reasons.
I finally realized some of my own personal issues surrounding why I have gained 70 lbs in 7 years. I thought acknowledging feelings or conditions or things that have happened would allow me the freedom to lose the weight and still I keep gaining. Now I am back here because I have gained so much weight that none of my clothes fit (and I am not exaggerating) and I start a new job today. A new, high profile, professional, must-look-good job. My mobility is limited. I feel like a weeble-wobble (they weeble and they wobble but they won't fall down) whenever I try to get off the sofa or out of bed. It is like my stomach is to big and it is knocking me out of balance.
I have case loads of medifast product (wonderful stuff that I am not complaining about). I even tried block my fridge with the Medifast boxes but, of course, my husband has to eat. I may not have faith in myself yet, but I do have faith in the Medifast program and in the success stories I have witnessed here.
I don't know if I am ready to re-commit yet. I want to be be, but I have wanted that in the past too. Wanting and doing aren't the same. I am not seeking sympathy here....I just feel like if I say things out loud (or wrote them in a public place) that somehow it is more real and it is not retractable. It is easy to hide out and read posts but it is another thing to come in with my tail tucked between my legs (and another few lbs of weight) and get started....again.
Success is getting up one more time than you fall. I want that to be true, but how many more times can I get up???????????? Well, I have at least one more time in me....
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