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alpha femme · by **alpha femme** » February 9th, 2007, 9:40 am

thank you, miss robin.

bikipatra · by **bikipatra** » February 9th, 2007, 9:44 am

Don't hate her because she's beautiful. Robin, did you see yourself as Rita Hayworth in the movie star thread?

DogMa · by **DogMa** » February 9th, 2007, 11:14 am

No, but I guess I need to go see it.

Rita Hayworth, huh? I'll take it!

Karli · by **Karli** » February 10th, 2007, 8:17 am

alpha femme wrote:i'm having a big wtf moment. i'm back up to 209.5, but i haven't cheated. seriously, if i'm gonna gain weight, i should get to eat the f-ing cookies. i'm just sayin'. at first i thought it was just water, but it's hung around for a couple of days. this sucks. and the loss rate has slowed so much that it makes me sad.

How are you doing, Alex ?

alpha femme · by **alpha femme** » February 10th, 2007, 1:18 pm

not good! stupid scale still at 207.5.
based on the last 3 months, i'm thinking about transitioning off for a while.

Karli · by **Karli** » February 10th, 2007, 3:18 pm

What if you spiked your calories again and shook your system up a little ?

alpha femme · by **alpha femme** » February 10th, 2007, 3:32 pm

i actually did that... no change. then i varied my workouts... no change.
<shrug> i've dropped 193#, i'm sure my body is not pleased with me....

well, my knees are pretty happy. but my boobs are pissed.

Karli · by **Karli** » February 10th, 2007, 4:00 pm

alpha femme wrote: my boobs are pissed.

LOL... well, mine are still undecided :-P

. They are certainly much smaller but I think I don't mind so much, it's more... sporty :-P

.

I am kinda curious about one other experiment, but I am scared to say it, but apparently I will anyway :

What if you mixed a little bit of junk into your diet for one or two days ? Okay, just figuratively speaking.

alpha femme · by **alpha femme** » February 12th, 2007, 1:18 pm

i had to ride in a cart across campus today, and the lady that was driving was thick, but not fat by any means. the old, terrifying feeling that i would not fit (or have to be smooshed up against her, making her uncomfortable) came over me. these carts are not big, you know....

she didnt even move over to make room for me, just said, "hop in." so, having no other choice, i took a deep breath and sat down, ready to try to hang my right thigh as far off the cart as possible....

i fit next to her easily, with plenty of room between us. it was a startling reminder of how bad my body dismorphia is. it was also a reminder that i am half (almost) the girl i used to be-- but in a good way this time. on that same vein, i realized that i now lecture for 90 minutes, moving, pacing, standing-- and i don't even notice it. one hundred pounds ago, i would have been looking for the nearest chair.

i walk back and forth across campus, 1/4 mile each way, just to say hello... or make copies... of drop off material... it doesn't even occur to me that it's far.

i recognize that my students and colleagues certainly see me as overweight (one didn't recognize me when she needed to return my driver's license), but they don't consider me in the least bit obese (though i still am). i think i'll feel a lot better when i drop another 50# or so and get into the healthy bmi range. but it's still weird to understand that no one knows i used to be 3 women in one.

jlaman79 · by **jlaman79** » February 13th, 2007, 10:01 am

Alex,
I understand much of what you're describing. I'm shocked at how much everything changes

alpha femme · by **alpha femme** » February 13th, 2007, 10:10 am

tom 1. i need this, why?

jlaman79 · by **jlaman79** » February 13th, 2007, 10:13 am

Sorry, I posted before I was done. Just wanted to say your journey is very interesting to me because I feel like we're canoeing down the same river and you're just further down the stream than me. So I listen carefully for news of all the rapids and bends that I'm sure to face. Thanks for being a scout.

Lizabette · by **Lizabette** » February 14th, 2007, 12:42 pm

ALEX,
Your avatar is gorgeous, and what a beautiful smile---hair, too!
You have done so good and I read your remark about people not knowing you were 3 women in one! What a great accomplishment!
No doubt you will complete your journey to goal...soon!
Happy Valentine's Day :heart:

DonicaB · by **DonicaB** » February 14th, 2007, 1:07 pm

Alex~ I agree with Lizabette.......you are a stunning woman.

I just want to really encourage you to hang in there. You have accomplished so much already.
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alpha femme · by **alpha femme** » February 16th, 2007, 12:06 pm

ugh. so, with the new job/hours, i haven't been able to workout at my regular rate. actually, i've been nowhere close to it. the result? i'm at 202.5.
i'm thrilled that 5 pounds fell off in 6 days. i also recognize that some of it is due to tom, wich is getting closer to being over....

but i love my hikes; i love my workouts. and being active and making a habit out of it is one of the biggest factor in maintaining my weightloss long-term. i have to find a way to balance the calories i'm taking in with the exercise, because i love pushing myself to new fitness levels... but i also like smaller jeans.

it's a conundrum.

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