The MakeMeThinner Support Forum

[alohacate]

Are you kidding? You are soooo / toooo pretty. Look at that smile and those eyes. Luv, luv the hair. Shazzaamm, compared to your before pics *YOWZA, yowza*. No time to be humble -you are a little hottie *OWN IT GIRL*.

[DogMa]

has anybody ever dated someone that turned out to be completely whacko?

That would require me to actually DATE on occasion. I believe I'm the first Jewish nun.

[PJinCali]

Dated one? ...how about dated several and married one! My first husband OMG..let's just say that was an experience I wouldn’t want anyone else to go through

FYI - love reading your posts...you are hilarious!

[Aerie]

Alex, you are courageous and beautiful woman. Look how far you've come. Plese keep going and keep posting, I for one want to see you succeed.

[DogMa]

All very deserved compliments. Although if you keep putting yourself down, we're all going to have to make a trip out to California to knock some sense into you!!

[alpha femme]

All very deserved compliments. Although if you keep putting yourself down, we're all going to have to make a trip out to California to knock some sense into you!!

i think my ex beat you to it.

seriously, though. i appreciate all the good commens and support. i just know i'm not great looking. what little self-esteem i had has been pounded out of me. eventually, i'll get out and start carousing again.

that should help.

[DogMa]

Stop saying that! I think you're cute as a button, personally. Especially in your avatar. That haircut is really flattering.

[Serendipity]

Alex,

I hope Miz Lil got paid for those scandalous photos. Shocking!

[Elizabeth]

Hi Alex. Just dropping in to say hi and how inspiring you are. We are the same height and same starting weight according to your ticker. Yesterday was Day 1 of the fast 6-0. I love reading your journal. You are full of information and so funny too! You ARE cute too. I think you look like Elizabeth Vargus on ABC News Congrats on the recent huge loss after your stall. You're doing great! See ya around.

[Elke]

I hope one day you start to believe and feel just how cute you are. You are a very pretty girl and you have great personality!!! You will get there girl, I am just now starting to feel attractive

[alpha femme]

miss lilly did not get paid for her photos. she has to consider it a learning experience. bad things can happen to young puppies in l.a. there are fur peddlers everywhere looking for fresh whiskers. it's just a terrible shame.

*** the following is very personal, and not at all mf related. if you think you would rather be kept in the dark about my personal life, please stop reading now. there is nothing graphic, but.... ***



so, i had decided to stay in last night... when ms right now called around 10:30. i really should learn my lesson. this girl has every sign of being just as crazy as my ex-- who has proven in the last 7 days that she is certifiable. when i thought we were committed, i didn't realize that she really needed to be.

anyway, ms right now is high maintenance, hot, and (for whatever reason) really likes me. it's just that i am so damn fickle. sometimes i think she is incredibly attractive-- and sometimes i'm, like, "uh, no."

(i have, in the past, acknowledged that i include myself in my "women are crazy" stance.)

i took her for a drive down to long beach, and showed her one of my favorite places on the water. and then i cheesed and wouldn't even hold her hand (to keep it pg for all of you). i really do need to begin exploring other people. i just, for whatever reason, cannot get into it. nothing seems to fit.

i realized that i am very uncomfortable with, and in, my body. i do not know how to change it. most people who want to move on would be thrilled with a hot girl who wants to help them.

as we drove back from the lbc, she said that she got the feeling we would never be more than friends. i agreed. she then said, "i don't want that. i'm not going to be one of those people who says, 'ok. that's ok.'"
so, i am not misreading her. i just can't get beyond me. i am my own worst enemy these days.

party girl, another new friend (for lack of a better description), has invited me to accompany her to a friend's bbq and party tomorrow. i feel awkward about meeting almost everyone who is important to her before we even know each other well.

i used to worry about embarrassing my ex with my looks or my lack of grace. looking back, i realize that she was damn lucky to have me. but that doesn't improve my perception of myself any. i just need to figure out where i fit. i don't feel like i belong anywhere right now. i don't feel connected to myself.

[Diana]

Alex -- just my 2 cents here, take it for what it's worth.

A) You've identified the right thing -- you've got to be comfortable in your own skin. I didn't recognize when I WAS attractive, and I wasn't for so long, but I'm starting to feel it now. It's amazing what a little flirting will do -- but besides that, and like everyone else has said, WE see how attractive both in body and spirit you are. But from personal experience as a former loser magnet, until you realize your own worth, you'll continue to fall for the whackos who continually wreck your life.

B) Set up some standards for whom you WANT to attract. Aside from the usual laundry list, how do you want to be treated? I had one absolute (well, ok, I had 2 absolutes -- one involved religious convictions): I had to find someone who ABSOLUTELY and sustainingly adored me; someone who was mesmerized and saw nothing but angel dust --for lack of a better description-- whenever he but thought of me.

Hang in there -- ms right will find you, and she won't be able to speak when she does. If it doesn't feel right, pay attention to your instincts. In the meantime, have a BLAST.

[alpha femme]

258.5 as of this afternoon.
i probably haven't been this weight since my very early 20's. of course, i didn't know it then, because i thought i was a beast of a whale no matter what.
ah, well...

[DogMa]

Great advice, Diana. I'm a lot like Alex, though. I think if Mr. Right (in my case) showed up and was that into me, I'd run the other direction.

Think we could get a group rate on therapy?

[alpha femme]

fear...
terror...

the prospect of meat. oh, yes.... this could be ugly. i know i can eat the meat/salad at today's bbq, if i wish. i probably will, because my date is not the host. how rude is it to say, "thanks for having me. your food will be shunned." in mexican families, it is as good as peeing on their new carpet.

but... i have had one lng in the last couple of weeks. we all know how this could turn out.

i hope this isn't a story i save for close friends on drunken nights filled with revelry and tales of shame. i hope my ketosis breath can be constantly masked by gum. i hope she wears something low cut.