by alohacate » October 12th, 2006, 10:49 am
I think I used to be invisible. When I was 51lbs heavier no one held the elevator door for me, helped me when I couldn't open a door or smiled at me as I passed by. My weight was a buffer zone between me and society. When important people came to my job they wouldn't look at me twice, now they put out their arms for a warm Aloha. A man actually winked at me the other day, ......I looked around to figure out who he was winking at.... who ....me? (nooo it wasn't the Rocket - ha, I wish) All of these changes are a bit overwhelming. I sense that I am more confident, strong and open yet I at times struggle emotionally. I still feel uncomfortable in my new "skin". Don't get me wrong I am happy about my weight loss - but I think I mourn the loss of my old body. Okay I am officially weird - but I had to put this out there.
Height: 5'10 Age: 38 Start Date:6/24/06
51 pounds gone forever -I'm bringing sexy back