nah. i am. i'll tell you about it... later.
I just got it! Using the word "slow" to describe me is a huge understatement sometimes.
In my defense, I was seriously sleep deprived that day!
Thursday was pretty much a bust. Just after making that post, my mom called to say they were 30 minutes away and heading to my house.
I had to drag my tired self to the shower and get cleaned up to go shopping with Mom after she and Dad finished at the BX and Commissary. After the mall I had to come home, say bye to mom & dad, grabbed a RTD and rushed off to pick up the kids from music lessons, then to Walmart for groceries/school supplies etc., then back home to clean up the kitchen, cook supper and clean up again. So, I didn't get all my water for the day (lost count but pretty sure it was 3, got in all 5 supplements though), seriously over exerted myself and ended up being totally worthless the next two days.
It was a real struggle to eat those 2 days since my Ketamine spray for pain really kills my appetite.
On the plus side....(and this is one for the personal history books!) I tried on a sharp looking suede jacket and my mom (who rarely pays compliments) patted me on the shoulder and told me how great I looked!
I didn't buy the jacket but plan to go back this week and see if it has been marked down some more. I can't decide between the suede jacket and a faux fur (faux mink) coat so the one that goes to 50% off first is gonna be mine! I've always wanted a cute faux fur coat but would never buy one since they all made me look like a grizzly bear (or polar bear, depending on the color of the coat).
This is day 8 of my restart and I have now lost 7 lbs. I'm sure it was probably all fluid since my face, hands, feet and ankles were really puffy before my restart and are back to normal now. I'm thrilled at losing all but 1 lb of what I gained during the holidays but now I'm ready to break a long and discouraging plateau. Hubby and I are going to Washington D.C. Feb. 3 for a week and I'd really like to lose another 5-10 lbs. before that. I have a suede skirt that is kinda snug across the tummy that I'd really like to wear in D.C. By the way, if anyone from D.C. is reading this, what kind of weather is typical in February??
Questions I ask myself frequently:
Will I be satisfied with where I am now if my body refuses to cooperate and I don't make it to goal? Or will I let my disappointment at my perceived "failure" cause me to go back to my bad eating habits?
If this plateau (inability to get past 70 lbs. lost) drags on indefinitely, when do I decide to accept that the weight I'm at is ok and start on maintenence...even if I'm not at goal?
Will I be ashamed to admit to friends and family that I can't make it to my goal weight after all. Should I have kept my goal weight loss to myself instead of telling friends and family? (pretty sure that's a 'yes')
Do I have unrealistic expectations/visions of what I want to look like?
And finally: will I drive myself nuts with all these questions?